Janvi's Personal Diary-2
23 / 9/ 13
Aaj
phir 1 nayi subah ...
Raat
ko sapne me bhi ‘Lunch box ‘hi aaya!
‘Mom,
when will my happy birthday arrive?’ I asked during one of my summer vacation. At
that time I was too small to understand the cycle of 12 months so my mom just
to quench my thirst answered that ‘Beta, your birthday comes when rain comes!’
(August!) For eons I believed that when rain comes my birthday comes. Well,
today it rained heavily in Rajkot and once again I recalled my mom’s words.
Today no matter I didn’t have my birthday but something inside was born
...as...
...it
was today that I realized that from so many years I am planning to make myself
financially independent moreover even my elders gave me the same advice of
taking the tablet of vitamin-M by myself but today no one thinks about being
emotionally independent. Today one of my close friends called shalini (name
changed) was so busy that she couldn’t talk with me; I felt completely ignored.
‘Usne esa quo kiya?’ ‘Have I lost my importance in her life?’ ‘Pehle to esa
nahi hota tha?!’ ‘I never ignored her!’ ‘Now should I make her regret for what
she did to me?’ - All such thoughts took over my mind and slowly but surely I
started hurting myself. Then, I remembered Sister Shivani’s saying (Brahma
Kumaris) that – Don’t put your locus of happiness outside. People don’t hurt us,
we hurt ourselves. Remembering such platinum words I closed my eyes for a
couple of minutes and started telling to myself ‘I am a peaceful soul’ ‘I am a
powerful soul ‘...
..and
I attained nirvana in myself , finally gave birth to a new; improved version of
Janvi!
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