That unanswered question.

That unanswered question.

 ‘Death is the number two fear that people have as the first is ‘Public Speaking’. ‘

This is a popular maxim that I have once heard. But personally speaking, I love my relation with a loud speaker, I cherish those moments that i have lived on stage. And i have always believed that whether you are born with wooden, silver or a platinum spoon, life is about finding meaning. Something to do on this earth which fires your spirit moves your soul. And for me that driving force is- Speech. As much as i know myself i can’t immerse myself in the beautiful blanket of silence if i have a stage before me!

I have attended several state and national level competitions and management events to groom my speaking skills (and also to prove the same!)I always felt that i can speak on any given topic; after all i had even proved that several times in my life.

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‘Understanding, Prediction, and control of the human resource in the organization is termed as Organizational behaviour (OB)’ answered Smita ma’am after we failed to appropriately answer her question.

Smita ma’am always teaches the management lessons after mixing a life lesson with her. And the same happened today, with a fervour face she asked us to speak about ourselves as OB is about learning the behaviour of the employees but for that first we must know about ourselves, our behaviour.

It was a type a question i had answered before to anyone in my life, not even to myself. I had no mirror in front of myself but still ‘I’ was visible to me through my open eyes.

The whole class turned -cold silent. And inorder to make it alive again she said ‘Just tell me 5 positive points about yourself. Just five points.’

When no one responded to her question she randomly picked up a girl from the last bench to provide her the answer.

Flaccidly she stood up and after starting to the madam’s face for a couple of minutes she started ‘I have good hairs.’

As soon as she finished, the whole class started giggling but only then ma’am with a abstruse face declared ‘I am telling you to speak out few positive points about yourself ...I mean you as a person, a human being. ‘I have good hairs’ is not the answer to my question’

She then picked up Dhara; a girl who can smoothly give me competition in speaking, no matter she is a throughout Guajarati medium student. She speaks too much and many a times teachers need to forcibly make her sit to give clemency to others.

‘I am flexible. I don’t argue with my elders and...’ Dhara paused with an endless end.

It was the first time ever that Dhara, a loquacious girl had no words to speak.

‘Look how easy it is to speak about someone else and how difficult it is to speak even for 5 minutes about self.’ Said ma’am in a lucid manner.

Finally came my turn to prove my astuteness and I started with zeal and zest ‘The first thing that i wanna tell about myself is that ...I love myself, I respect myself for being good at Speech, Writing, acting and even dancing...’ (I spoke a long blah...blah...blah...but all that didn’t make sense) I was going out of the topic and i never felt so defenceless in my life. I had faced several extempore competitions but this was the toughest : To speak on my positive points. (What a dumb metaphor!)

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The class went over then but the lesson i had received was a eternity. I than thought that i never thought about my thoughts ,about myself. I always die for someone praising me but I never praised myself. So, today before you i am writing all the good qualities that I think I possess and I hope that even you will do the same.

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Janvi Sonaiya’s bright side:

·        I respect myself.

·        I am down to earth.

·        Ambitious (Oops! Very ambitious)

·        Innovative (I do feel that I go for out of the box thinking)

·        Adventurous (I am not writing this for the sake of writing, Ok!)

Dark side:

·        Maudlin

·        Gets driven by anyone. (My remote control is generally not in my hand!)

·        Easily trusting others. (& than paying the price)

·        CARELESS (I am always in my third world. Lost. So ...)

P.S.: you know what I had to think muchhh before writing about bright and dark side, even you try it once. Its fun. It will help you to introduce ‘YOU’ to yourself, in a better way.

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You believe that you live in the world, when in fact the world lies within you.

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